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<feed xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2005/Atom"><title>LEdoian's Blog - queer</title><link href="https://blog.ledoian.cz/" rel="alternate"></link><link href="https://blog.ledoian.cz/feeds/queer.atom.xml" rel="self"></link><id>https://blog.ledoian.cz/</id><updated>2024-05-21T17:03:00+02:00</updated><entry><title>Hello, I'm agender</title><link href="https://blog.ledoian.cz/hello-im-agen.html" rel="alternate"></link><published>2024-05-21T17:03:00+02:00</published><updated>2024-05-21T17:03:00+02:00</updated><author><name>LEdoian</name></author><id>tag:blog.ledoian.cz,2024-05-21:/hello-im-agen.html</id><summary type="html"><p>Hell yeah, a coming out!</p>
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<p>Important: Please, read this article <em>in full</em> and do not just skim it. There
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is no TL;DR, I don't think any reasonable summary of this post can be made
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without me misrepresenting myself. Alternatively, please just skip this article
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altogether – I am fine with …</p></summary><content type="html"><p>Hell yeah, a coming out!</p>
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<p>Important: Please, read this article <em>in full</em> and do not just skim it. There
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is no TL;DR, I don't think any reasonable summary of this post can be made
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without me misrepresenting myself. Alternatively, please just skip this article
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altogether – I am fine with people not knowing these details about me and not
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acting upon them. Thank you a lot! (The way of interacting with me changes only
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a little, if at all, but I care a lot about how this fact about me is handled.)</p>
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<p>NB <a class="footnote-reference" href="#pun" id="footnote-reference-1">[1]</a>: This is only about me at this time. My experiences are my own,
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please don't assume any of this applies to anybody else – while it might, there
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are a lot of other agender experiences that are quite different from mine and
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assuming others are feeling the same will probably lead to misrepresentation
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and hurtful attitude. Please, just ask (it may feel weird, but being treated
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wrong feels weirder), thanks.</p>
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<p>Also, my own identity and feelings may change in the future (as they certainly
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have in the past), so while I'll try to add an obsoletion banner to the top of
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this article when/if that happens, if you think I'm inconsistent with what I
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have written here, please also ask me about that.</p>
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<p>This is a rather general post, I would like to write separate articles going
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into more detail. I'll add them here, but before I do that, feel free to ask me <a class="footnote-reference" href="#asking-bad-questions" id="footnote-reference-2">[2]</a>.</p>
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<p>So, let's get into my gender!</p>
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<div class="section" id="what-am-i-feeling">
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<h2>What am I feeling</h2>
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<p>I feel reasonably fine. The better question is: what am I <em>not</em> feeling? I do
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not feel gender – I don't relate to being man or woman, I am just me. The
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ideals of &quot;stereotypical&quot; man or woman feel foreign to me, and for as long as I
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can remember, I haven't felt &quot;wo/manly&quot;.</p>
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<p>Before I thought about it, I would tell you that I was one of the classic
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genders. Passively, that would be my best guess: – my given name is that
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gender, my ID says I am that sex, etc.</p>
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<p>But then I thought about it, and pretty much didn't find the answer to &quot;how do
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I feel my assumed gender?&quot;. I read some classical descriptions, and didn't feel
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like I match. I even considered, whether I would want to be treated as the
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opposite gender, but the answer was something like &quot;nah, sure it would be
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different, but that has its own set of problems and I don't see any wins there
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either.&quot;</p>
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<p>That's the short timeline, I will share more details in a separate post. If I
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write it, that is.</p>
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</div>
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<div class="section" id="how-to-behave-towards-me">
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<h2>How to behave towards me</h2>
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<p>Important disclaimer: Especially this section <strong>only talks about me</strong>, other
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agender people may feel differently. Do <strong>not</strong> assume anything about other
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(agender) people from this!</p>
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<div class="section" id="language">
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<h3>Language</h3>
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<p>The first thing that comes to mind is the language. In general, I don't like
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being titled with gendered words when referring specifically to me (i.e. I am
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not a &quot;boy&quot;, &quot;lady&quot;, &quot;man&quot;, &quot;daughter&quot; etc.) – please prefer general words like
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&quot;person&quot;. When addressing me together with other people, I will not complain to
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be included under general statements like &quot;ladies and gentlemen&quot;. This means
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that there should not be too much that changes in this regard.</p>
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<p>Pronouns – everyone's favourite topic – are a bit tricky due to differences
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between languages I speak. In English I slightly prefer they/them, but any
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traditional pronouns (he/it/she) are also fine with me.</p>
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<p>In Czech, due to inflection of names, first start to referring to me as
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LEdoian, because my given name would sound very weird in other grammatical
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genders. And then probably still keep using masculine for me (LEdoian is
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declined the same way as &quot;pán&quot;) – while I am open to experimentation <a class="footnote-reference" href="#grammatically-neutral" id="footnote-reference-3">[3]</a>,
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I have not figured out the details and would like to arrange individually (at
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least at first). If you want to be part of the experimentation, ask me :-)</p>
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<p>I do not consider my given name to be a deadname (at least for now), you can
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keep using it and don't need to feel bad for doing that. However, don't use the
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name in a different grammaical gender, that would sound weird. And unless we
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already use some variation of my given name, do not try to invent a new one.</p>
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afraid it would be too visually appealing for people to avoid reading the
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text. And I can definitely not put everything in it, so it might cause more
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harm than without the table. Sorry. (It's like four paragraphs anyway, so…) -->
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<div class="section" id="in-relation-to-others">
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<h3>In relation to others</h3>
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<p>I am not completely out yet – in fact, sharing with &quot;whoever on the internet
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actually cares about me enough to read my blog&quot; currently seems like one of the
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safer ways. So while me being agender is not a secret anymore, I
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wouldn't like it to be the &quot;gossip of the day&quot; either (it's not a good talking
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point and I am giving way too litle detail here for anyone to be able to
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represent me accurately anyway). Don't out me just because you can <a class="footnote-reference" href="#coming-out-to-some-people" id="footnote-reference-4">[4]</a>.</p>
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<p>If somehow the talk comes to this topic and you need to reference me
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specifically, I think the best thing is to hint that I am <em>non-binary</em> as the
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reasonable compromise between misrepresenting me as any binary gender and fully
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outing me. Also try keeping in mind that the term &quot;non-binary&quot; is an umbrella
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term that conveys even <em>less</em> information about feeling of self than &quot;man&quot; or
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&quot;woman&quot; do. See also <a class="reference internal" href="#the-queer-quirks">the queer quirks</a> below.</p>
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<p>If the listener knows me, you can tell them to ask me if they are interested in
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more. That is more preferred approach than referencing this blogpost, because
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that lets me represent myself better and in a more concise way than this post
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can.</p>
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<p>On a related note, you may find yourself in a discussion that misrepresents me <a class="footnote-reference" href="#idk-how" id="footnote-reference-5">[5]</a>.
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While I understand that you might want me to feel good and included, I would
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like you to <em>not</em> stand up for me too explicitly. I don't want to it being the
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big deal, if I am present, it is way more comfortable to be accidentally
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misrepresented than having the conversation take a bad turn and becoming weird.
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(See <a class="reference external" href="https://youtube.com/watch?v=auXqQp-jWsk">this episode of Couple-ish</a>
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for a maybe-not-too-exaggerated example of a derailed discussion.) Probably the
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best thing is to ignore the misrepresentation or dismiss it with something like
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&quot;that is actually more complicated&quot;. If I am present, let me do most of the
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speaking (or ignoring) – I think I know how much I want to stand for myself in
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a given situation. (Standing up for non-binary/trans*/genderqueer/… people in
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general is fine if you want to do that, just please don't make that inherently
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about me <a class="footnote-reference" href="#being-ally-is-more-acceptable" id="footnote-reference-6">[6]</a>.)</p>
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<p>That being said, referring to me as LEdoian is fine (I think most people know
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that this is my nickname, even if they don't actively use it), if we decided to
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use a different grammatical gender for Czech, it's both fine to use that and to
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fall back to masculine if that feels it would fit the conversation. <a class="footnote-reference" href="#incompatible-agreements-maybe" id="footnote-reference-7">[7]</a></p>
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<p>The fun part is interacting with me, which follows completely different rule:
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if you think I am misgendering <em>myself</em>, please tell me you think so. This
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helps me be more mindful about when I use gendered language. (If I misgender
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someone who is out or you are allowed to out them, also please tell me, it is
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probably unintentional.)</p>
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<div class="section" id="other-stuff">
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<h3>Other stuff</h3>
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<p>It's nice to be able to represent myself in forms, so I like being able to
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choose the third option for gender (if you need to ask). I don't particularly
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mind whether it is described as &quot;other&quot; or &quot;not specified&quot;. (Just maybe don't
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try to be too clever about the choice, <a class="reference external" href="https://genders.wtf">or else</a>.)</p>
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<p>While I am not very proactive about my gender (as in, I don't have the urge to
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tell anyone on sight), I am quite open about my experience. Feel free to ask me
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if you are interested. If you think it would be too weird to ask out of the
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blue (or you just want to let me know you read this blogpost – I appreciate
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that!), ask me what my hair colour is :-)</p>
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<p>And again, please prefer asking me to assuming stuff about me (or possibly
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anyone). Gender is weird, there is a lot I am not telling in this post and a
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lot of nuance that can be hard to convey to general public.</p>
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</div>
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<div class="section" id="the-queer-quirks">
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<h2>The queer quirks</h2>
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<p>I understand not everyone has studied queer-sensitive language <a class="footnote-reference" href="#ally-year-ago" id="footnote-reference-8">[8]</a>,
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so let me put here a few basic rules for talking about queer people. (Again,
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just a quick rundown, I may write a separate article about this.) As opposed to
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the above, <strong>this section is general</strong> and represents the current usage of
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language, to the best of my knowledge.</p>
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<p>Parts of speech: Most labels like &quot;agender&quot;, &quot;transgender&quot;, &quot;non-binary&quot;,
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&quot;genderqueer&quot; are used as adjectives (like e.g. the word &quot;blue&quot;), so they are
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used like &quot;an agender person&quot;, &quot;the transgender flag&quot;, &quot;they are non-binary&quot;.
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<em>Do not</em> say ~~&quot;flag of agenders&quot;, &quot;they are a genderqueer&quot;~~ or even ~~&quot;John is
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transgendered&quot;~~. Some labels can be also used as nouns, and <em>some people</em> also
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reclaim <em>some labels</em> to be used as nouns, but others may not think that is
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appropriate usage for them. E.g. the word &quot;enby&quot; belongs to the former group,
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but &quot;gay&quot; belongs to the later (acc. to <a class="reference external" href="https://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/gay#Usage_notes_2">wiktionary</a>).</p>
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<p>This usage differs a bit in different languages, though. In Czech, most labels
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are still adjectives, though. Usually labels are not inflected, except when the
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word is &quot;Czech-compatible enough&quot;: „vidím transgender ženu“, „s nebinárními
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přáteli“.</p>
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<p>Labels: Labels itself are mostly useful as approximations of what someone
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feels. They are useful to relate to others and in communicating, but almost
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never give full information themselves. Some are
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umbrella terms for many experiences, which may have their own label; however,
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this does not mean that by using a sublabel one also identifies with the
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umbrella term which the sublabel is canonicaly part of. It is <strong>up to the
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person themself</strong> to determine which labels they want to use, labeling others
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against their will is inappropriate/rude. Sublabels that are not widely known
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are often termed &quot;microlabels&quot;. (Using labels is voluntary, queer people do
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not need to use any labels for themselves.)</p>
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<p>Few relevant labels/words:</p>
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<dt>transgender</dt>
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<dd>in the widest sense, a person who experiences their gender differently from
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the gender they were assigned at birth. A broad umbrella term. (People who
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experience gender in accordance to the gender they were assigned at birth are
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termed <em>cisgender</em>.)</dd>
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<dt>non-binary</dt>
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<dd>a person who does not feel to be &quot;100% man&quot; or &quot;100% woman&quot;. Canonicaly this
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falls under the transgender umbrella. Also a rather broad umbrella term.</dd>
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<dt>agender</dt>
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<dd>a person who does not experience gender. Canonically under non-binary. In
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fact, this still covers very different experiences regarding gender.</dd>
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<dt>genderqueer</dt>
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<dd>synonymous in definition to non-binary: not exclusively man or woman. (As
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written above, not all non-binary people also identify as genderqueer, and not
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all genderqueer people identify as non-binary.)</dd>
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<dt>enby (n.)</dt>
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<dd>when used as noun, a non-binary equivalent to words &quot;boy&quot; and &quot;girl&quot;. Some
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non-binary people use the term for themselves, other see it as too childish.</dd>
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<dt>intersex</dt>
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<dd>(included just for the distinction) having ambiguous or mismatching
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biological sex characteristics (genitalia, chromosomes, phenotype). Not
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necessarily under the transgender umbrella – intersex people may experience
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their gender (a social construct) in a way typical for the one they were
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assigned at birth.</dd>
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<h3>My gender labels</h3>
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<p>(Not general anymore, this is solely about me again.)</p>
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<p>I use the following labels to describe my experience with gender to most
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people: agender, genderless (synonymous in definition to agender), non-binary,
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enby. My microlabels are out of scope of this post (to keep it short and not
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give undefined words).</p>
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<p>The label &quot;genderqueer&quot; somewhat describes my experience, but I don't use it –
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I think &quot;non-binary&quot; is more approachable and more explicitly states that it
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doesn't really describe a particular gender experience. In other words,
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depending on the wording I would say it technically <em>applies</em>, but not that I
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<em>use</em> the label.</p>
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<p>I don't use the word &quot;transgender&quot; to describe myself. To me it feels the word
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often conveys the idea of gender change, transition and associated challenges,
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and I don't identify with this experience. (I think I can understand at least
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some parts of the struggle, though, and I do enjoy transgender memes :-))</p>
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<p>There are a few words that I might use to describe myself, I don't consider
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them to be microlabels, but they have a tricky relation to my gender (which is
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out of scope of this blogpost). Please, do not use them to describe me, unless
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I described in detail what I mean (canary: this has not happened since writing
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this post), even if I used the word myself and you know the definition:
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gender-nonconforming, genderfluid.</p>
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<div class="section" id="faq-forcefully-avoided-questions-fairly-anticipated-questions">
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<h2>FAQ: Forcefully avoided questions / Fairly anticipated questions</h2>
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<p>I guess people will ask, so let me just put down some answers here in advance :-)</p>
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<dt>How do you know you really are agender? What will you do if you start feeling gender? Is it just a phase?</dt>
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<dd>The label is just a way to put a name to what I feel now. And no, I don't
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have all the answers <a class="footnote-reference" href="#reference" id="footnote-reference-9">[9]</a>. Using the label allows me to find other
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people with similar feelings, learn how they navigate possible challenges and
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puts my mind at peace that I am not completely insane/broken/alone. If my identity
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changes, I'll try to find comfort in another label probably. If it is just a
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phase, so be it, I can probably still learn something about myself from it.</dd>
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<dt>Does anything else change about you?</dt>
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<dd>Yes. Apart from what I have written on this page, I realised that I do not
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have to follow gender stereotypes/expectations for myself, so I started
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experimenting more with my appearance. Confused a few people already :-D</dd>
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<dt>What if I accidentally outed you?</dt>
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<dd>That's life, and it's not like it can be undone. Since me being agender is
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low-key public information anyway, it is not a big deal to me. However, if
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you tell me who you've told, it will help me be ready if they start asking
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unexpected questions (esp. because when someone first interacts with a queer
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topic they might be unintentionally insensitive). You can also tell the
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person you outed me to that I am basically fine with them knowing, so that
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they don't <a class="reference external" href="https://blog.ledoian.cz/do-not-gossip-identities.html">need to metagame</a> w.r.t.
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my gender.</dd>
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<dt>What do you have between your legs?</dt>
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<dd>Not answering this one. You wouldn't ask your teacher. You wouldn't ask your
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boss, you wouldn't ask your uncle and then make sure yourself. Asking such
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questions is inappropriate and being asked such questions is unpleasant.
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<a class="footnote-reference" href="#reference" id="footnote-reference-10">[9]</a> (How I feel my gender is not related to my anatomy. How does
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having two nostrils make you feel?) <a class="footnote-reference" href="#dysphoria-question" id="footnote-reference-11">[10]</a></dd>
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<p>There are a few questions to which the answer is something like: &quot;no, it's
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complicated, maybe read the blogpost in a few days again and if it still isn't
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clear, please ask me directly.&quot;:</p>
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<ul class="simple">
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<li>So you are a man/boy?</li>
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<li>So you are a woman/girl?</li>
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<li>Are you transgender?</li>
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<div class="section" id="closing-thought">
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<h2>Closing thought</h2>
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<p>This is a rather sensitive topic, not just for me, but for many people who are
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struggling with/doubting/hiding their gender (and the doubts can return or be
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persistent). While this post is not focused on other such people, I'd be glad if you,
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my dear reader, try being considerate to other
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experiences/feelings similar to mine. Many other people are not in a position
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to feel safe talking about these struggles. One of the reasons I am
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writing this is because I want/need more people to try considering these
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challenges (and through that help spread understanding) and I am &quot;lucky&quot; that I
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can be relatively open about it, at least on the internet and in some irl
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groups.</p>
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bad to ask, try being sensitive and tolerant and ask me anyway. And be sure
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<tr><td class="label"><a class="fn-backref" href="#footnote-reference-3">[3]</a></td><td>In fact, I am now trying to use the neutral
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grammatical gender for myself, but as a language exercise, not as the
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definitive gender to use. You don't need to keep this in mind when
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come out to myself when I am ready. I need them to understand me
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correctly, it would be painful to refute any misconceptions they get from
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other sources. This blogpost is written carefully and would be OK for
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them to read as an introduction, but probably still unnecessary. (Please
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don't go around like &quot;Hey, I cannot tell you but LEdoian has an interesting
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post on their blog, go check that out&quot;, ffs.)</td></tr>
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gender could yield, but I guess some could emerge, so I am adding this
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paragraph just in case :-)</td></tr>
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be also safe. Therefore, while I can ~freely advocate for
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queer/trans/non-binary people in general, standing up for myself in
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particular might have unseen consequences.</td></tr>
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you use different grammatical gender for me, throw a game of
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rock-paper-scissors or something. Or use another way to determine. &quot;Don't
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actively harmful towards people who feel distressed by the mismatch between
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their gender and genitalia. Just please don't ask about this.</td></tr>
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</content><category term="queer"></category><category term="gender"></category><category term="identity"></category></entry><entry><title>You sure you want to hear the gossip?</title><link href="https://blog.ledoian.cz/do-not-gossip-identities.html" rel="alternate"></link><published>2024-03-11T22:49:00+01:00</published><updated>2024-03-11T22:49:00+01:00</updated><author><name>LEdoian</name></author><id>tag:blog.ledoian.cz,2024-03-11:/do-not-gossip-identities.html</id><summary type="html"><p>Sometimes, not knowing something about your friends is simpler than knowing
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something you know you aren't supposed to know…</p>
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<p>TL;DR: If you are gossiping, please handle information which change attitude
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towards others with care and maybe share them with consent of the <em>listener</em>. <a class="footnote-reference" href="#on-gossiping" id="footnote-reference-1">[1]</a></p>
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<p>Some time ago, I was …</p></summary><content type="html"><p>Sometimes, not knowing something about your friends is simpler than knowing
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something you know you aren't supposed to know…</p>
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<p>TL;DR: If you are gossiping, please handle information which change attitude
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towards others with care and maybe share them with consent of the <em>listener</em>. <a class="footnote-reference" href="#on-gossiping" id="footnote-reference-1">[1]</a></p>
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<p>Some time ago, I was casually talking with my friend, let's call them Alex.
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For one reason or another, we got to gossip and I learnt a new, very private
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information about our mutual friend, Bay. <a class="footnote-reference" href="#names2" id="footnote-reference-2">[2]</a> I knew Bay would not
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expect me to know or possibly even want me to know at that time, yet the new
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part of their identity would require me to behave differently around Bay in
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order not to hurt them. <a class="footnote-reference" href="#non-disclosure" id="footnote-reference-3">[3]</a></p>
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<p>That turned my interactions with Bay into a bit of a minefield:</p>
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<ol class="arabic simple">
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<li>If I behaved according to what I learnt, I may easily overstep Bay's
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boundaries and invade their privacy, possibly quite badly. <a class="footnote-reference" href="#my-privacy" id="footnote-reference-4">[4]</a></li>
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<li>If I kept my old behaviour, I would feel like I am actively hurting Bay.</li>
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<li>If I accidentally slipped my tongue in front of Bay and they notice, I still
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ending up invading their privacy as in point 1.</li>
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<li>I am also prone to sharing the gossip, maybe accidentally. I would be to
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someone else what Alex was to me, and I certainly didn't want to cast this
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&quot;curse&quot; on anyone. <a class="footnote-reference" href="#gossip-circumstances" id="footnote-reference-5">[5]</a></li>
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<li>If Bay subconsciously noticed I am behaving in line with their secret and in
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another interaction I wouldn't, they could feel invalidated (without an
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obvious reason why).</li>
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<p>It sucks, it made talking to Bay needlessly stressful. Please don't do that.</p>
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<p>So, to reiterate the message: <strong>Please gossip *safely* and *consensually* about
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stuff that is private in nature and would change attitudes towards people.</strong>
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For the queer stuff, this can be rephrased in layman's terms as <strong>please just
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don't out other people to people who do not explicitly want to know.</strong> <a class="footnote-reference" href="#consent" id="footnote-reference-6">[6]</a></p>
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<!-- ReST wtf, why can't I put emphasis in strong? -->
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<p>(Again, maybe gossip safely anyway, but for the &quot;regular&quot; gossip you can
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usually hide what you know without feeling that bad.)</p>
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<div class="section" id="final-remarks">
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<h2>Final remarks</h2>
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<p>I wrote this post mainly to raise awareness and help learn from past mistakes.
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It is not meant to shame Alex for telling me, they might not have been aware
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and neither were I at the time.</p>
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<p>Apart from the role as &quot;me&quot; in the story, I also were &quot;Bay&quot; a few times,
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luckily not with a too intimate part of my identity. And while I try not to be
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another &quot;Alex&quot;, I cannot rule that completely out unfortunately.</p>
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<p>This post has been a long time in my backlog (~6 months maybe), it is not a
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reaction to any recent gossip I have heard. (The points I make still hold ofc,
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but lately I only heard &quot;the ordinary stuff&quot; which I will probably just forget
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and not care about without harming anyone.)</p>
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<p>Lastly, Bay eventually told me themself, so my life is peaceful again. I didn't
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ask if I am allowed to talk about that and with whom, so I err on the safe side
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and will not write here anything else :-)</p>
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<tr><td class="label"><a class="fn-backref" href="#footnote-reference-1">[1]</a></td><td>I mean, gossiping is not nice to the mentioned person who
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doesn't usually consent, but it's not like I could prevent people from
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gossiping, so this post is not about that. Also, you can conceal your
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knowledge of &quot;regular&quot; gossip more easily than of gossip which changes your
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attitude.</td></tr>
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<tr><td class="label"><a class="fn-backref" href="#footnote-reference-2">[2]</a></td><td>I originally wanted to have the friends be Alice and Bob, but that
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might support the narative that &quot;girls gossip&quot;, which is sexist and IME not
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accurate (more like &quot;everyone gossips&quot;). So I made my friends be of
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ambiguous gender and use they/them pronouns. Sorry, this might make the post
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a bit harder to read, but the stereotypes need to die :-)</td></tr>
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<tr><td class="label"><a class="fn-backref" href="#footnote-reference-3">[3]</a></td><td>I will not give any more information here. Don't try to
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guess, I am not telling. Bay is my friend and deserves privacy. (However, if
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you suspect that you might be the Bay of this story, by all means ask me
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whether you are. I don't want you to feel bad / insecure / unsure / … (And
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in fact, there may be multiple Bays…))</td></tr>
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<tr><td class="label"><a class="fn-backref" href="#footnote-reference-4">[4]</a></td><td>There are definitely parts of my identity I do not share much
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and would probably get upset at various people (and also paranoid) if I got
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outed. OTOH, the number of people who know my secrets is non-decreasing
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anyway, so I try to prepare that someone unexpected inevitably will overstep
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this boundary, possibly in a good faith. (If you want to try to act upon my
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secrets, I'd appreciate you asking beforehand to avoid weird reactions.)</td></tr>
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<tr><td class="label"><a class="fn-backref" href="#footnote-reference-5">[5]</a></td><td>Naturally, this gossip sharing can have various
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circumstances: Me (or Alex) being unaware that the listener (call them
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Cameron) doesn't know, slipping my tongue in a subtle way yet Cameron
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understanding the subtext, being drunk, … It might be difficult to keep the
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secret in all those situations.</td></tr>
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<tr><td class="label"><a class="fn-backref" href="#footnote-reference-6">[6]</a></td><td>If the listener wants to know and go sweeping mines and you are
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willing to tell them, ~~sure, tell them~~ it's up to you and I have no say
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in that. Learn the consequences and go for the interactions you want to
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have!</td></tr>
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